With My Own Two Hands

I must admit that I have been feeling a little frustrated lately. I am so eager to get on with working here, but the path seems to be blocked. I have also felt torn between pouring myself into the old friendships that I have from my last visit and working to develop new ones with my students this year. I suppose that’s way they say, “Make new friends, but keep the old.”

Anyway, as I have been talking with father about our plans and pouring out my heart to him about how much I want to get busy he shared his heart with me. The overwhelming message that came through loud and clear was – stop looking to be busy with doing and look earnestly for the sun. In my desire to build relationships with others, I had begun to neglect the one relationship that is most important. I had blamed it on being busy with classes and such, but really, it was about laziness. I figured that I knew what I needed to be doing and so I did not need to consult father about what his will for me was.

I think that this is something that we all fall prey to at times. We think that what our father most delights in is service and doing things – business, but his real heart is for us to know him truly and deeply. As you go about your routine, doing whatever it is that you are called to do, meditate on this. I think that it will bless you!